My psychic's predictions for me from a year ago (and if they came true)

I saw a psychic for an article 3/11/13.  Here's an excerpt:

I was earnestly committed to the idea of giving this the most honest try that I could. But as my turn came, I couldn't help but try one little trick. I mean, how many times would a guy like me actually end up at a psychic? So, I decided to take off my wedding ring before going in to see if my reading would change. When I walked in, I got the sense that the office was set up in under an hour and everything was temporary. Despite her history at the location, it seemed as though the office was ready to be packed up in three moving boxes in under an hour.
When I sat down Senora Rose commenced my aura reading. My aura was saying I’m honest. With the deceptive ring trick.
Then her animated reading of the tarot cards began. The cards said that my current relationship wouldn’t last a year. I have to assume she didn't see a lot of chemistry on the waiting room security camera between my writing cohort, Jodi, and myself.
Upon learning of such a future, and knowing full well my 10 year marriage was as strong as ever, I just had to ask, “My marriage won't last a year?!” And without a pause for breath, she said, “You will grow old with this person.” From “final days” to “live long and prosper” just like that.
Her following premonitions were equally as interesting. My mom's gonna die this year, too, I guess. I'm supposed to get rich from an inheritance, but the person will be very old. My mom and I are the only ones with money to burn, but she's only 48, so I don't know.
I'm going to have a minor accident and sue and get rich from that, too, despite me hating lawyers and having passed up those exact opportunities in the past.
Finally, she read my palms. With the wedding ring tan line clearly apparent, my palms say I'll live to be 91. It seems this fat, drinking, motorcycle rider on six medications is going to laugh at all your funerals, you tofu-eating, yoga-practicing chumps. Didn't you know the secret to long life was a bacon cheeseburger with Krispy Kreme donuts instead of buns?


Still married.  No one died.  No inheritance.  No accident.  No lawsuit.

I am healthier this year than last, so checkmate, skepticism!

What I Learned In Myrtle Beach

My "bits" collection has expanded.  Here's what I didn't get to read though.

Basic Ground-fighting Techniques (http://www.armystudyguide.com/content/army_combatives/basic_groundfighting_combative_techniques/index.shtml)

Alastair Humphreys' blog (http://www.alastairhumphreys.com/category/blog/lists/)

Mindfulness
Never act under compulsion, without forethought, out of selfishness, with misgivings
No surplus words, actions, or thoughts
Control your thoughts
Forget everything but the present
Reputation will soon be forgotten
Choose not to be harmed and you won't be harmed. Don't feel harmed and you haven't been.
Every event is the right one if it is happening
Love discipline
Nothing that goes on in anyone else's mind can harm you
It's fortunate that this happened and you weren't hurt worse by it.
You can lead a good life anywhere.
When jarred return quickly to yourself
I can control my thoughts and what happens outside my mind has no hold on me.
Look at the past – empire succeeding empire – and from that, extrapolate the future: the same thing. No escape from the rhythm or events. Which is why observing life for forty years is as good as a thousand. Would you really see anything new?
Think of yourself as dead. You have lived your life. Now take what’s left and live it properly.
Either pain affects the body (which is the body’s problem) or it affects the soul. But the soul can choose not to be affected, preserving its own serenity, its own tranquility. All our decisions, urges, desires, aversions lie within. No evil can touch them.
To privilege pleasure over pain – life over death, fame over anonymity – is clearly blasphemous.
To do harm is to do yourself harm. To do an injustice is to do yourself an injustice – it degrades you.
When you run up against someone else’s shamelessness, ask yourself this: Is a world without shamelessness possible? No. Then don’t ask the impossible. There have to be shameless people in the world. This is one of them. The same for someone vicious or untrustworthy, or with any other defect. Remembering that the whole world class has to exist will make you more tolerant of its members.
If you don’t have a consistent goal in life, you can’t live it in a consistent way.
It never ceases to amaze me: we all love ourselves more than other people, but care more about their opinion than our own.

Squat Jumps 3
Bodyweight Squats 12
Box Jumps 3
2B. Single-Leg Bodyweight Romanian Deadlift -12 reps per leg
2C. Box Single-Leg Lateral Crossover Step – 12 reps per leg
Sitting ankle rotations 10/10
Lying leg extension 5/5
Hands on thighs, roll back and forth, looking through 3/3
Then roll with leg extension 3/3
Then roll into butterfly 3/3
Cat/Camel extensions of spine up/down
Sitting arm reach behind back one up/one down
Same reach laying on stomach
Sun salutation
Neck rolls
(really move from toes up, moving each piece)
Tone Up on the Treadmill "Save time at the gym with this 10-minute cardio/sculpt session: Hop on a treadmill holding a three- to five-pound dumbbell in each hand, and set the speed to a brisk walk. Do a one-minute set each of shoulder presses, biceps curls, triceps extensions, side laterals, front laterals and standing triceps kickbacks one after another as you walk. I's an amazing upper-body challenge that also gets your heart pumping. Do this series two or three times each week. As you improve, work up to doing four-minute sets." --Michael George, trainer and owner of Integrated Motivational Fitness in Los Angeles
Give Yourself a Break "You don't have to be a fitness saint to get results. Follow the 80/20 plan: Eighty percent of the year, you'll exercise regularly and eat well. Know that you'll slip 20 percent of the time due to holidays and work deadlines. When you accept that fitness isn't an all-or-nothing proposition, you're more likely to stick with it for life." --Maureen Wilson, owner/personal trainer/instructor, Sweat Co. Studios, Vancouver, B.C.
Maximize Your Crunches "Don't relax your abs as you lower your chest away from your knees during a crunch -- you get only half the ab-toning benefit! To get the firmest abs possible, you need to sustain the contraction on the way down." --Steve Ilg, founder of Wholistic Fitness Personal Training and author of Total Body Transformation (Hyperion, 2004)
Make Over Your Running Routine "Unless you're training for a marathon, skip long, slow, distance running -- sprinting builds more muscle. Add a few 10- to 60-second sprints to your run, slowing down just long enough to catch your breath between them." --Stephen Holt, 2003 ACE Personal Trainer of the Year
Practice Depth Jumps A depth jump is performed by stepping off a box and then exploding upward immediately upon landing on the ground. This teaches reaction time and will help your lower body muscles activate when you need to catch air. Start by standing on a box that is 6 to 8 inches off the ground. Step off. As soon as you touch the ground jump as high as you can, reaching your arms overhead. Land softly in an athletic position. Take a second to recover, then step back onto the box, set yourself, and repeat. Try doing 3 sets of 3 reps on Week 1, 4 sets of 3 reps on Week 2, and 5 sets of 3 reps on Week 3.
1-ARM SQUAT to CURL to PRESS > JG Photography Print Combining the two moves into one makes it much more challenging and will burn more fat, and the one-sided aspect challenges the core.
DIRECTIONS: Hold a dumbbell at your side. Squat down with a straight back, then stand back up. Without pausing, curl the dumbbell, then press it overhead. Slowly lower the dumbbell back to your shoulder, then to your side.
High intensity interval training
When working one muscle, remember to relax the opposing muscle.

New stimuli stretches out time more than old stimuli repeated over and over so by having new stimuli constantly, we experience a "longer" life.
“There” is no better a place than “here.” When your “there” has become a “here”, you will simply obtain another “there” that will again look better than “here.” (?)
Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
How are you affected by standardized time, designed solely to synchronize your movements with those of millions of other people?
Who or what controls your minutes and hours that add up to your life? What are you saving up your time for?
What can you get later that will make up for this day of your life? Hunter
Your objective is to become aware of your own breathing… without consciously controlling it.
SAH - Slowly Add Habits
COH - Constantly Observe Habits
TAH - Take Away Habits
"Where are you from?" - Conversation starter
  1. Inspire by example
  2. Have high expectations for those around you
  3. Listen to what people say
  4. Volunteer to help others
  5. Don't be afraid to take risks
Take brain breaks
Organize brain bookshelf
Become an expert in things
"If only you could comprehend the nature of your own Mind and put an end to discriminatory thought, there would naturally be no room for even a grain of error to arise. As it is, so long as your mind is subject to the slightest movement of thought, you will remain engulfed in the error of taking 'ignorant' and 'Enlightened' for separate states." -Zen Master Huang Po
"Pure and passionless knowledge [Enlightenment.] implies putting an end to the ceaseless flow of thoughts and images." Huang Po
"The only real demon is conceptual thought." -Dudjom Lingpa
"Just stop thinking and see it directly." -Linji.
"Zen is just getting rid of the discriminating mind." Tsunemoto, The Hagakure
"Cast away all things, becoming without thought and without mind." -Hakuin-Zenji
"This abstaining from all thought whatever is called real thought". -Dazhu Huihai
Be Methodical
Just 'trying to be more observant' is one of those challenges that doesn't have much of a goal. Instead then think of a methodical way to examine any particular room or environment. For instance try working from the top left of your visual field to the bottom right and noting anything that you see of interest as you do the swoop. Alternatively it may make more sense to start in the center of your visual field and then to do widening loops – this is true as the things of most importance are often those that are right in the middle of your visual field. They present the most pressing concern simply because they are right in front of you.
Engage With What You See
Engage with what you see as well. For instance don't just 'look' at the mark on the wall, rather try to think where it might have come from, what made it etc. As Sherlock Holmes points out, there is a big difference between seeing and observing. Everything you see that is out of place, ask yourself why it is there and how it got there, and what it tells you about the bigger picture.
Where's Waldo?
But here is the real thing to learn from this: yes, we all have these inner demons--but what do we do with them?
Do you keep them locked up inside, and shy away whenever they rear their ugly heads? If so, they will rule and control your life until the day you die. They will hold you back, and prevent you from growing into many valued areas of your life.
Or do you, like Jung, draw them out into the open, reveal them, and heal them? Not defeat them, but HEAL them--by realizing they are simply a part of you that you pushed away!
8 KEY IDEAS FROM STOICISM:
1) It’s not events that cause us suffering, but our opinion about events.
2) Our opinions are often unconscious, but we can bring them to consciousness by asking ourselves questions.
6) Fieldwork is vital.
Another thing the Stoics got, which modern philosophy often misses, is the idea of fieldwork. One of my favorite quotes from Epictetus is: “We might be fluent in the classroom but drag us out into practice and we’re miserably shipwrecked.” If you’re trying to improve your temper, practice not losing it. If you’re trying to rely less on comfort eating, practice eating less junk food. Seneca said: “The Stoic sees all adversity as training.” Imagine if philosophy also gave us street homework, tailor-made for the habits we’re trying to weaken or strengthen, like practicing asking a girl out, or practicing not gossiping about friends, or practicing being kind to someone every day. Imagine if people didn’t think philosophy was “just talking.”
Are my symptoms psychological trauma and the result of child abuse?!
Recognise that you have been through a distressing experience and give yourself permission to experience some reaction to it. Don't be angry with yourself for being upset.
Express your feelings as they arise. Whether you discuss them with someone else or write them down in a diary, expressing feelings in some way often helps the healing process.
“Face that which you fear. Condition your heart to trump your ego. Move boldly in the direction of your life purpose.” – Dr Sean Stephenson
The Clear Mind Procedure:
Write down everything that’s on your mind on one piece of paper (use more than one piece of paper if you need to).
Create three columns on a second piece of paper, and label them:“to be done," “maybe later," and “delete." Sort all the items on the first piece of paper into the three columns on the second piece of paper.
Take each item on the “delete” list, send it off into space, and tell it never to return (with a corny little ceremony if that helps).
Take the items from the “maybe later” column and put them on your “maybe later” list. (If you don’t keep a “maybe later” list, start one).
Take the items from the “to be done” column and put them into your planning system. (If you don’t have a planning system, then get one).
unfinished tasks
trips you want to take
people with whom you should touch base
skills you want to develop
subjects you want to learn
areas of your life in which you feel inadequate (such as your physical appearance, your knowledge, or your skills)
regrets about past choices
daydreams about what you would do differently if you could re-wind the clock and start over again
ways you feel trapped in your life
interpersonal conflict issues
home repair issues
home renovation ideas
things you’re dissatisfied with and want to change
goals other people want you to pursue
worries about the economy
worries about loved ones
habits you want to establish or break (but have had little success with to this point)
and pretty much anything else that has come to mind at some point over the last few days

Flow
Tapping into flow
  1. Set the stage
  2. Intrinsic Motivation (mindfulness)
  3. Create a physical trigger (ritual) to initiate flow
  4. No Destination
  5. Right Amount of Challenge
  6. Time Out
Struggle - Relaxation - Flow - Consolidation
  1. Get Centered
  2. Get Clear
  3. Remember Why
  4. Use Your Imagination
  5. Starting is Success
Environmental Triggers
  1. High Consequences
  2. Rich Environment
  3. Physical Awareness
Psychological Triggers
  1. Clear Goals
  2. Immediate Feedback
  3. Challenge/Skill Ratio
Social Triggers
Serious concentration, clear/shared goals, good communication, familiarity, blending egos, sense of control, close listening, always say yes
  • Creativity Trigger

First Galaxy Problems

I want a sticker that says Don't Panic to go on my Kindle (which has access to wikipedia and is like the Hitchhiker's Guide in that regard), but all that exists are shitty cafepress stickers.

Mind. Blown.



Whoa. (a comment from Reddit on little known film facts)

In Inglorious Basterds, the burning of the cinema at the end parallels the actual church burning by the Nazis at Oradour-sur-Glane where women and children were locked within the building and burned alive.
In fact most of the movie sees us compelled to cheer on our protagonists as they commit war crimes and atrocities (scalping, carving foreheads, summary execution, etc) and we feel permitted to enjoy this because they are morally superior and justified in their actions given our knowledge of the vileness of their enemy and what they have inflicted upon our heroes.
Yet this is exactly the pervasive mentality the Nazis used in reality to justify atrocities against the Jews and other minorities.

Day 5 of Family Vacation: Myrtle Beach: 2015 Memorial Day: Special Edition

As supplies are running low and we considering eating the young one, I thought I'd talk about supplies.

I packed the following to come to Savannah and Myrtle Beach on a week-long trip.

1.  Sandals
2.  Red boxers
3.  Jeans
4.  Belt
5.  Tank top
6.  Brown short sleeve dress shirt
7.  Swimsuit
8.  Pills
9.  Chromebook (with charger)
10. iPhone (with cord)
11. Kindle (with cord)
12. Gum
13. Toothbrush
14. Floss
15. Shampoo/Conditioner 2 in 1
16. Ear buds
17. Bottle opener/screwdriver multitool
18. $60 cash
19. Driving directions
20. Insurance cards
21. Credit card
22. ID
23. Car key
24. Wedding ring

It sounds like it's not much (especially as far as clothing), but I could still cut some stuff.  My wife has the same iPhone and we only have needed one cord.  I could have skipped the Kindle cord because that stays charged for weeks.  Shampoo and Conditioner have been provided in all the rooms I've stayed in.  Ear buds have been free at the gym.  Toothbrush and floss I could've bought when I got here.  I haven't needed a bottle opener/screwdriver multitool. Haven't need insurance cards either, but I think I'll keep packing those to be safe.  Gum could've been bought on the road though.  No need to pack that.

A few needs have arisen that I wasn't prepared for though.  Kiri has been doing these activities with the resort that take cash, so that's gone.  And I noticed my heels were looking a little cracked so I bought a pumice stone and some lotion that will go back with me.  I've also bought two pairs of sunglasses and a bizarre gift for my father in law that has a Cubs logo stuck on it, so he'll love it.

Fear

http://www.anxietybc.com/sites/default/files/FacingFears_Exposure.pdf

Without getting metaphysical (loss of love, etc), my fears are well-defined.  Maybe it's a side effect of the crazy.  I've spent my life differentiating between what is and what I feel is.

Dog Bites

Falling Elevators

Losing Sanity

Losing Intelligence

Eating Crickets

Right now, these don't interfere with my life much.

I freeze up around certain dogs, but not all dogs.  The only ones triggering me now are my friend Johnny's.

I'm good on elevators and can handle twenty floors with little problem.  Thirty or so and I throw up.  Exceptions are things like the Willis Tower (though I went up when it was the Sears Tower) which has super fancy elevators that don't trigger me.

The fear that my pills might stop working or I might change chemical gears around them is silly and it doesn't bother me that much.

A head injury resulting in a Flowers For Algernon-style regression is confined to nightmares.

Eating crickets weirds me out because I imagine their little round black eyeball stuck between my teeth.

According to this paper, I should face these fears.  Approach Johnny's dogs.  Ride more elevators.  Trust my brain.  Eat crickets.

Well, one step at a time.

I owe X blogs, this is one on my eating today

So this could tie together the juxtapose of an entry on gorging and one on fasting.

Breakfast:  Two strips of bacon, one bite of hashbrowns (I cooked up a lot of bacon, eggs, and hashbrowns for my family)

Lunch:  Two bites of mac and cheese (Cooked it up for the family)

2:45pm: Memorial Day Apple Pie Eating Contest.  I won.  They were miniature pies about the size of my fist.  I had a frozen cocktail to celebrate.

6:00pm: Gorged at a highly recommended seafood restaurant.

It's all about using your calories on the important stuff.

I owe 6 blogs. Here's one on Marcus Aurelius

Meditations by Marcus Aurelius is one of the greatest books every written in the history of ever, but it is, for me, impossible to just... read.

Every single paragraph in that book is a masterpiece.  Every idea he puts forth causes me to stop reading and reflect upon it.  Given that it is a book of meditations, this makes sense, but still.  I blow through the Tao Te Ching without the concern that I have for Aurelius' words.

Here is a way to take a peak without getting overwhelmed.  This guy has rewritten 50 lessons from Meditations in his own words, so at least I don't get awe-struck while reading it and can get through it in a sitting.

http://www.kratosguide.com/50-life-lessons-from-marcus-aurelius-emperor-of-rome/

I owe 7 blogs. Here's 1 on Cook Out

Sure, let me follow up my entry bragging about my low calorie diet with a gorging entry.

I'm in Myrtle Beach right now and loving life.  Got my wife, my son, and we are just chilling in a timeshare.

When I move north, I get a chance to see chain restaurants that are moving towards Florida before they arrive.  I got to try Firehouse Subs before a lot of my friends because of this and I think I spotted a new place that's heading our way.

Cook Out is, at its core, a hamburger joint with a shake specialty.  The taste, variety, and price set it apart though.

Price:  It's cheap.  A combo meal with two sides and a big drink cost $5.  Did I mention they consider things like corndogs and quesadillas as sides?  Actually, you can get a chicken quesadilla combo with two chicken quesadillas as side dishes. And that "big drink"?  It's a supersized soda or an ice cream float or a shake for a buck more.

Variety:  There's over 40 types of milkshakes.  There was probably 20 main dish type foods in the BBQ range.  The menu is very Sonic-like.

Taste:  Of course none of this matters if it isn't good.  It is.  I want to say that the fries and shakes taste like the Heart Attack Grill in Las Vegas (which fries in lard and uses heavy cream for shakes) but a more accessible comparison is Five Guys for the fries.

Kiri had a combo meal with a burger, a side of corn dog (for Hunter), a side of onion rings, and a cappuccino milkshake.

For my FIRST meal, I had the BBQ platter which was a scoop of chopped pork with Texas Pete hot sauce poured on top then two sides of fries and hushpuppies with a Heath toffee milkshake.

For my SECOND meal, I had a combo with a burger (done "western style" for 70 cents more with bacon, bbq sauce, and onion), another corn dog for Hunter, and I had to see what the "side" of a "bacon wrap" was.  It was a helping of bacon with a leave of lettuce, a little shredded cheese, and some mayo in a tortilla.  I opened the tortilla and put the insides on my burger.  I had a berry banana milkshake which was sublime.  It was like the missing link between milkshake and fruit smoothie.

All of this cost me under $20 and we cleaned our plates.

Cook Out's locations are mostly in South Carolina, but have spread to neighboring states.  The place was packed.  We'll be seeing them in North Florida soon and in Orlando soon after that.

Two additional notes on restaurants.

1.  We're getting a Red Robin in Orlando on I-drive.  I wouldn't care except that they have played Red Robin commercials in Orlando for years because we're the same market as Tampa where they have one.

2.  We ate at Paula Deen's Lady and Sons in Savannah while we were there.  Pretty amazing.  $15 gets you a small buffet of southern food.  It's the only time I've ever been done at a buffet after one plate.  So filling.  So delicious.  Ranked in my top 3 of all time for fried chicken, baked chicken, creamed corn, and bbq sauce (on the ribs).

Rape Scene

I don't like this chapter.  I didn't like having one of my heroes raped, but it was important for the story.  Beyond that I think its weak.  The recovery on salvia doesn't feel right (originally when this was a superhero story, she took a werewolf kind of drug).  But the part I'm worried about the most is the first paragraph of Chapter 10.  Instead of actually writing the rape, I wanted to have Levi talk about something seemingly unconnected, but use words that implied he had just witnessed a rape.  Or at least, get confused by the rape aftermath and reread the paragraph to find it. Right now those trigger words are in italics, but I don't want them to be.  I just think that if they're not, no one will get it.


[END OF CHAPTER 9]
"Hello?" Alone in this ghost shop in this ghost town, moving to the back of the store, I called again, "Hello? Tintswa-ah, I mean, Lindiwe?" Knocking on the office door got no response, but the door was open. The room was barren of human bodies or office technology. I pushed on the rear door, opening my way to the outside, the rear of the building. Then I pulled the door closed and tried to forget.

CHAPTER 10
On assignment, my subconscious is always writing, putting together the words I'll use later to describe something. It begins writing as a reaction, finding verbs and adjectives for the acts that I see. I have no control over it. If I had, I would not be overwhelmed with the diction penetrating my imagination. My brain would not be held down and forced to receive the hard truth over and over. It is an extreme situation to be violated in such a way that what was once sacred had been turned profane. For a moment, I tried to pretend it hadn't happened and that I could live life as I had before these words were thrusted into my tender, loving mind. The shark was available. I didn't need Tintswalo. I walked to the car and opened the driver's side door.
And then I was saying something to the gas station owner. I don't remember what. He was standing across from me and she was still on the ground. I had a gun from the trunk in my hands. He was begging for his life to me. I didn't know siSwati, but I knew that.
The few moments until I was standing over the gas station owner with his blood on my toes and his pants at his ankles, releasing a full clip into his corpse were a blur. I stopped only because I ran out of bullets.
Tintswalo was in shock. I picked up her pants and she vomited behind me. Helping her to the car, she had to stand half naked in public while I covered up the broken glass on her seat. She didn't care. Her brain seemed to have shut down, her body was going into shock. Some more pimp suits from the trunk seemed to help when I laid them on top of her in the passenger seat. She trembled as I drove us away and towards Lavumisa. Coming over the hill, I stared at South Africa across the border. We were so close. We were almost there. I looked at her, but that was the problem. The tears had smudged her make up. The gas station owner had disrobed her of her manly threads. She was in shock and incapable of passing off herself as himself. I parked at a motel and left her in the car.
"I'm going to get us a room, ok?"
She didn't answer.
In the room, I lowered her gently into the bathtub. She resisted the removal of any more clothing and I didn't push the issue.
I wanted to talk to her and make her feel better, but I didn't know what to say. Was there anything that could be said?
I went to the shark and popped the trunk. There was nothing that could be said, but surely there was something that could be taken. Some pill, some shot, some salve in her kit of kits. I brought in whatever looked relevant and carried them to the bathroom where Tintswalo was drowning herself. Dropping the drugs, I pulled her up out of the water. She coughed and I said nothing. There was nothing I knew to say.
"I brought drugs."
Comforting people wasn't/isn't/will not be my specialty.
Her hand trembled and it pointed to her suitcase. I got off the toilet and picked it up, but I stopped moving towards her.
"You're not gonna OD, are you?"
Her shoulders and hand dropped as if a viable option had been taken off to the table and the alternative was a difficult choice. She chewed a mouthful of salvia and laid back in the tub. I reached between her legs and pulled the stopper, then cleaned up the drugs and closed the door.
Fun Travel Tip:
Salvia is nothing to fuck with. It’s a strong hallucinogenic the Native Americans use for spirit quests, totem journeys, or whatever else excuses they call getting fucked up. Turns the user into something else. Shuts down higher brain functions and screws with the thalamus. Gives you a break from thinking. Salvia is good for that. No consideration, no regret, no self-loathing, self-blame, anxiety, guilt, humiliation, shame, or helplessness.
I wished I could have been there for her as she licked her hands in that bathroom, but there were no words in my dictionary to soothe this savage beast, escaping as she was into her primordial cortex. There was no television in this room so her mewling, screeching, and purring rang uncontested in my ears. After twenty minutes, she emerged, naked, on all fours.
"Thank you, Levi. I'm feeling betterrrr."
"Do you want some clothes from the car?"
She dropped a shoulder and rolled to her back, then rocked back and forth, rubbing her back on the carpet.
"I'm fine for now. Purrrrrfectly fine." She gave me a seductive eye as she said this. The rolled back to all fours and looked at me, then wiggled her ass in the air and pounced, jumping on me.
"Whoa! Hey! Tintswalo!"
She started nipping at my neck, but she would regret this when she sobered up. Pushing her off, I left the bed.
"Let's wait til you're straight," I said.
"I'm strrrraight enough, Levi, and if I die stopping Geils, I don't want that," she spat, "man to be the last I have." I backed up as she inched towards the side of the bed. "I'm already dirty and used. So, come on, Amerrrrican..."
"We're not going after Geils. We're going to the border."
"Oh? What about your story? What about saving the people?"
"These people don't deserve to be saved."
"Few people do."
Shaking my head, she finally gave up and pleasured herself while I watched her and made sure she didn't slit her wrists or hang herself as she slinked around the room naked and out of her mind.

Weight Loss

Last summer, I did "P90X+" and it's in quotations because I didn't REALLY do it.  I'll explain.

P90X and its sequel P90X+ (which features a more muscle building version and a less muscle building version than standard P90X) have 90 day programs for diet and exercise.

The diet portion is a three tier program that has you consuming a lot of calories in specific proportions of carbs, fat, and protein that change each month.  The exercise program is a "muscle confusion" program where you quickly change exercises every few minutes and change routines every day.

Well, I have a prosthetic shoulder from my glory days as a wrestler.  So many of the exercises were impossible for me.  Others had to be modified (for instance, I do pushups against a coffee table or the edge of a bed instead of the ground).  For ones I straight up skipped, I would run in place or do some other exercise.  And I added a few exercises to the routines that I do for physical therapy of my shoulder.

Dietwise, I felt unchallenged on the P90X diet.  I also felt like it was too much food, especially considering I wasn't getting the full workout.  So I started with a general "healthy" diet and then started to trim here and there.  What I ended with (and what I'm doing now) is known as a VLC Diet (Very Low Calorie).  I try not to go over 1,000 calories a day right now (yesterday was 800).  Last summer I ended doing 400-800 calories a day.

Now, that SOUNDS extreme.  Honestly, the only portion I've found extreme about it is how it sounds to other people.  I end up lying about my diet just because I don't want to hear people "warn" me about it.

Yes, I've read that you need a minimum of 1,200 calories. (MyFitnessPal yells at me every time I log under this number)  I just don't BELIEVE it.

In America, the idea of eating less than 1,200 calories a day is horrible, but I wonder how many calories a day the average Central African eats or the average member of the lower classes of India.

There's a thing called a "water fast" where you eat or drink nothing but water.  It's supposed to be very beneficial.  3 day fasts are common in that community, but one doctor I read said everyone should do a "long" one at some point in their life.  Long being 21 days.  I tried the water fast and only took my medicine and water, but after a day and a half, I started getting diarrhea.  It might have meant nothing because a GI specialist says I have Irritable Bowel Syndome, diet changes often cause me to have diarrhea, and diarrhea is just a normal part of my life randomly some weeks.  However, diarrhea (yes, I'm seeing how many times I can type that word lol) is also a symptom of lithium poisoning.  As I take a shitload of lithium and have to be tested regularly for lithium poisoning, I got worried.  With no input except medicine, that meant my liver went from processing a 99/1% mix of food/drugs to a 0/100% mix.  So I cancelled that experiment.

Too bad.  I was enjoying it.  I'd recommended it.

At this point, I should say HOW I have the "willpower" to reject food like this.  I don't sell my willpower short.  I can overcome most temptations.  Cookies, taffy, bacon, and fruit are among my very few trigger foods.  I also lack the willpower to turn down things that I think would make people feel uncomfortable.  If we all go to a steakhouse, I'm not ordering a salad.  If my son wants to feed me a candy, I eat it.  But it's an augmented strength.  Whatever normal resistance I have, it's not superhuman until I take my adderall.

Adderall is an anti-ADHD drug that makes your brain focus, concentrate, and pumps up your energy levels.  I was prescribed it because my anti-psychotics and lithium were making me a little foggy.  A side effect is a loss of appetite.  The duration of all of adderall's effects change from person to person, but apparently addy and I were made for each other because the effects last all day for me.  I just don't have to eat.  Yesterday I was at 400 calories and wasn't hungry, but I forced myself to eat a little more because I felt a societal pressure to do so.

Adderall is a trick, but there's no secret to weight loss.  If you burn more calories than you take in, you lose weight.  End of story.  I don't believe there's some secret ratio of carbs and fat and protein.  I remember an article on a professor proving this by eating nothing but small portions of Hostess products to lose weight.  Exercise doesn't burn that much, but I believe it keeps your resting calorie burning rate up so I do it.  It's really all about the diet.

It's a simple plan that can be summed up in four word:

Eat less.  Do more.

That's it.  If you find yourself eating, remember to eat less.  In the beginning, I found that weight fell off as soon as I stopped eating two helpings of everything.  If you find yourself doing nothing, get up and do more.  Even if you're stuck at your desk, swing your feet around or do kinesthetics.  I do kinesthetic pushups in the car when I'm at red lights where I push away on the steering wheel and pull it into myself at the same time.

The only other thing I can vouch for by P90X is the time frame.  The idea that "I only have to do this for 90 days" really helps.  I kept a list of foods I'd eat after the 90 days were up and modified it as the time went on.  Made it real easy to keep going knowing that it wasn't a "forever" diet.

Weight loss from the July, August, and September 2013: from 270 lb to 220 lb = 50 lb loss or about 20%

I moved between 225 and 218 for the next few months, but I'm starting back on a VLC diet with a light exercise plan and I'm at 216.  My wife, and all but my oldest friends, have never seen me below 220 lbs.

I graduated high school at 199 with 12% body fat.  I don't think I can get there again, but maybe I can get to 199 with 25% body fat.  I don't need all that muscle these days anyway.  My arthritis wouldn't let me do anything with it.

Friday we leave on a "do nothing" vacation.  A weekend in Savannah, then a week in Myrtle Beach.  I plan to spend a lot of time "zenning out" as I've told my wife.  I have a backlog of self-improvement articles and bodyweight exercises to explore.  I'm bringing very little with me and will be exercising my mindfulness (being completely mentally present in each moment).  And I'll be eating very little.  My wife seems on board with this and is bringing our food scale for herself.  Other than a reservation at Paula Deen's restaurant, there's no plan to splurge on money or calories on this trip.  Obviously Paula Deen is hardly low calorie, but it's a matter of living life versus hiding from it.

What's the point of being healthy and living if you don't do interesting things with your life?

Reddit

My friend just bragged to me about getting to the front page of Reddit.  Luckily, I was able to neuter his happiness by showing him my post archived very high up in /r/all... If this makes no sense to you, good.  You are a good person.

But I had to track down my old account to find proof and I thought it'd be fun to look at my top and bottom rated comments of all time.  I'm omitting the ones that only make sense in context.  It's like ill-tempered turret's.

Top-rated:

1. WoW doesn't want me trolling, Chris Hansen doesn't want me chatting, China doesn't want me looking at the news, my boss doesn't want me playing games, Steve Jobs doesn't want me looking at porn, what the hell am I supposed to do on the internet?!

2. AOL stands ready for your search terms.

3. I didn't think I would ever say this but "Upvote for racial cleansing"

4. This should be a international campaign to guavafy our mail services.

5. Why is Spider Jeruselum quoting Watchman in an Insane Clown Posse shirt while a Tim Burton puppet looks on?


Bottom-rated: 

I lied.  I have never received a downvote.  (Actually it was just really hard to scroll down to the end of the comments and you can only sort by top, new, or controversial)  So here's my most controversial comments!

Q: Do you find it rude when coworkers speak a different language around you?
1. I bet at least one person who upvoted this has upvoted a "Rednecks are dumb and ignorant with things like "Welcome to America, NOW SPEAK ENGLISH" shirts" and don't even feel the least bit hypocritical.

2. While I'm teaching motorcycle classes, writing books on food, writing articles for the local indie paper on hot nightspots, then vacationing to go scuba diving through wrecked ships and visiting exotic South American locations with my beautiful wife and our child, I'll remember to have a drink in honor of the quiet, reserved bunch that (for some reason I'll never understand) don't do what they want to do.

3. How many hipsters does it take to screw in a lightbulb?
It's a really obscure number and you've probably never heard of it.

4. I've written, edited, formatted, and published a 50,000 in one day. Took adderall and stank by the end of it. But I did it.

5. Goes both ways right? The atheists shouldn't infringe on the theists' rights, too.


And finally, an example of why I had to leave this account and start a new one.  I had become banned from so many advice columns.

My girlfriend says whenever we have sex its always "porno sex" or objectifying her. Does she have a point?

I disagree with the others. I think you should go the other direction. Show her what real porn sex is. Hook her up to a dildo machine and then rub your asshole on her forehead while bobbing your balls on her chin as you cum on her tits and make sure you tell her she's a stupid cunt. At the end, tell her you aren't really a casting agent.

1995 had a statistically significant rate of occurrence of movies I love

This blog post is tripe.  No.  It's rice.  Rice is filler.  Maybe that bread they bring you before you eat for realsies.

Mallsrats
Clueless
Hackers
Johnny Mnemonic
The Usual Suspects
Se7en
Braveheart
Goldeneye
Toy Story
Waterworld
Casino
Mortal Kombat
Jumanji
Tommy Boy
Batman Forever
Twelve Monkeys
Billy Madison
Apollo 13
Die Hard With A Vengeance
Judge Dredd
Tank Girl
Desparado
Four Rooms
Empire Records
To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything, Julie Newmar
Outbreak
Heavy Weights
Babe
Powder
The City of Lost Children
Congo
Strange Days
French Kiss
Cutthroat Island
To Die For
The Net
First Knight
Mr Holland's Opus
Assassins
Virtuosity
Rumble in the Bronx
Tales From The Crypt: Demon Knight
Money Train
The Last Supper
Canadian Bacon
Tales From The Hood

The Non-stuff-stuff that owns you


I keep a list of everything I own.  I like it.  It's therapeutic and updating it has the kind of zen to it that balancing a checkbook used to have (when we still used checkbooks).  But there's another kind of ownership.  Non-stuff-stuff.  It's usually digital in nature.

Like Tyler Durden said, "The things you own, end up owning you."

If you are subscribed to something, that thing eats up your time.  Even if it's just the time spent looking at it to realize you don't want to look at it.  I already posted about Unroll.me and my email subscriptions:

* Flash Mob America
* Kevo Support
* Lulu.com
* My Gym Waterford Lakes
* Oneblood
* Orlando Pub Crawl
* Publix Super Markets
* Roku
* Songza
* Team Couple
* Venmo
* Hotto Potto (new from last time; local restaurant I love)
* MSF Media Relations (new from last time; my industry newsletter)

Well, now I'm going to talk about ME ME ME a little more.

These are my only Facebook Likes.  Both of them are companies of a friend.  I have lots of friends with companies that ask me to like them.  I like them, then stealth unsubscribe later.  I'm still on these two right now because her businesses are actually ones I want to keep an eye on to see if they get off the ground.  Exotic fruits and hippy baked goods (that are delicious).  I wrote an article on this woman that is published in a couple months and I want to see if they get a little more popular, too.

* 100% Edible and Fruiting Plants
* Wake 'n' Bake

These are the only TV Shows I watch:

* Borgia (About the family of Pope Alexandre VI.  It ends this season though.  There's a few Borgia shows out.  This is the French-German-Czech one also know as Borgia: Faith and Fear.  Best show I've seen in years.)
* Sherlock (Only 3 episodes per season, but they're good episodes)
* Doctor Who (The Doctor is someone I have mixed feelings about, like any long lasting relationship.  Whovians have a "my Doctor" and since my parents started me young, my Doctor is Tom Baker from the 80s.  So I've got a sunk cost fallacy to deal with if I ever wanted to stop watching.  There are good episodes and bad episodes.  The good ones are really good.  The bad ones are really bad.  In the last few years, my wife has gotten into it enough that we watch them together.  With her schedule though, that means I miss the whole season and then catch up with her at the end of the season in a couple days.)


Now, there are some TV Shows that I might start watching because I like the books/comics they are adapted from.  Arrow is already on the air, but the rest are coming in the next year.

* Gotham (Batman prequel)
* Arrow (Green Arrow.  I didn't like the pilot, but I heard it got much better)
* Flash (Looks like they're going full spandex)
* Preacher (Fucking mature content religious sacrilege story.)
* Constantine (DC Comics' John Constantine.  I liked the Keanu Reeves movie, but this looks like it'll actually do the character justice.)
* Gun Machine (Warren Ellis just tweeted that his book is being adapted.  It's about an investigation into a room full of an altar of guns, all from famous murders throughout history)

I've started following some Blogs again.  I stopped when Google Reader went down, but I started up on Feedly.  They're all minimalist things.

* Becoming Minimalist
* Frugal in Tasmania (guy is in the middle of buying only the pure essentials for a year and donating his money to charity)
* GoDownsize.com
* The Everyday Minimialist
* the minimalist mom
* The Minimalists

Bits

To keep up (or make up rather) with NaBloPoMo, I need two more posts.  Let's cut it down to one post with a collection (check my contract, it's allowed /transmetropolitanjoke).  I have a private subreddit on reddit that I use to post random shit I like to use later.  A scratch pad in the cloud.  Here's a sneak peak.

How to compose a successful critical commentary:
  1. You should attempt to re-express your target’s position so clearly, vividly, and fairly that your target says, “Thanks, I wish I’d thought of putting it that way.
  2. You should list any points of agreement (especially if they are not matters of general or widespread agreement).
  3. You should mention anything you have learned from your target.
  4. Only then are you permitted to say so much as a word of rebuttal or criticism.

Dragon mythologies around the world probably resulted from discovery of dinosaur fossils.

There is a bull market for whoremongers all over the country these days, and the price of women is still not going up. - HST 1981

Roku channels recommended: Sky News, Weathernation, PubDHub, DriveInClassics, Smithsonian, Tune In, Nowhere TV, Premiere, ADC, Snagfilms, Cafe Noir, Cryptic TV, Justin.tv, Nowhere Porn (private add), Midnight Pulp

Here are my drafts:
1 - vomit draft - let it fly baby
2- Story arc pass - main story subplots - overall structure
3- MC & supporting character arcs - including character development & embellishment
4- grammar/punctuation pass & bad habit pass (adverbs/tense/sentence variety/word choice)
7 - Hard copy read - make corrections
8 - Kindle read - make corrections
OUT TO BETAS
9 - Including Beta notes pass
10 - Holistic read - wearing my audience hat
11 - Corrections from Holistic read

Beer jellybelly.com
Squished coconut macaroon ice cream sandwiches 75
Chicken rice soup 84
Sausage alfredo 97
Fried chicken 104
Tiny Carrots 134
Tortellini in Mushroom-Parmesean Broth 149
Lemon Meringue Napoleon with Ginger Cream 173


Why did Anne Frank have trouble with math?
She couldn't get to the Final Solution.
Also... you'll never make it passed 18 (or whenever she died)

One day the phrase wireless communication will sound as antiquated as horseless carriage.

Girls are like blackjack. I aim for 21 but always end up hitting on 14.

Only break one law at a time. If you're carrying weed, make sure your headlights work.

Buy high quality tools, so you only have to buy them once
If you do not take care of it, you do not deserve to have it
Never hit anyone unless they are an immediate threat
Every hat should serve a purpose
Never take her to the movies on the first date
Nothing looks more badass than a well-tailored suit
Always look a person in the eye when you talk to them
Buy a plunger before you need a plunger
Exercise makes you happy
Brush your teeth before you put on your tie
A small amount of your paycheck should go directly to your savings account every month
Never wear a clip-on tie
Give a firm handshake
Compliment her shoes
If you aren’t confident, fake it
You can tell the size of a man by the size of things that bother him
Be conscious of your body language
Always stand to shake someone’s hand
Never lend anything you can’t afford to lose
Ask more than you answer
Never have sex with anyone that doesn’t want it as much as you
Go for women out of your league
Manliness is not only being able to take care of yourself, but others as well
You either run the day, or the day runs you
When you walk, look straight ahead, not at your feet
Nice guys don’t finish last, boring guys do
You miss 100 percent of the shots you don’t take
Find your passion and figure out how to get paid for it
Don’t let the little head do the thinking for the big head
No matter their job or status, everyone deserves your respect
The most important thing you can learn is personal responsibility
The first one to get angry loses
A man does what needs to be done without complaining
Never stop learning
Always go out into public dressed like you’re about to meet the love of your life
Don’t change yourself just to make someone happy
If you’re the smartest person in the room, you’re in the wrong room
Victory loves preparation
Women find confidence sexy as hell
Do whatever you want to do, but be the best at it
Do the right thing without expecting anything in return
You’re here for a good time, not a long time


I've been doing a lot of spring cleaning lately, and thinking about how I actually practice simple living. How my version of simple living manifests:
Keeping my home clean - clutter adds to my stress levels enormously. We also don't have a dishwasher so we end up doing dishes throughout the day to reduce the stuff everywhere.
Having a strict schedule for grocery shopping - I got to the same 3-4 stores every two weeks on payday. My grocery lists are pretty much the same week to week, which helps me stay in budget and plan meals.
Knowing when to get rid of something material - we all get attached to material goods, whether it's that sweater you love, the mug you got for Christmas, or even a towel that you've had forever. But when the sweater starts to fall apart, you really don't love the mug at all, and the towel has holes in it from being used for 5 years...it's time to throw it away or replace it. I have gotten pretty good at not eliciting an emotional response when something I bought with my own money needs replacing or something I got as a gift just doesn't do it for me anymore. This was one of the hardest "skills" I had to learn, but I just looked at it from a business/economic PoV: there are sunk costs in life and everything depreciates. Budget accordingly and live with it.
Managing my digital clutter - I'm not a pro at this one yet, but I like to think I'm getting better. Consolidating accounts, getting rid of those I don't need or use anymore (as opposed to letting my data "exist" out there on the interwebz), taking digital sabbaticals every now and then, etc.
Having a semi-strict budget & reducing my debt - Every two weeks I get paid the same amount (I'm salaried). I budget the same amount for groceries and gas each week. I know what bill I'm going to pay with what paycheck each month & have a schedule for it. I use whatever additional funds I can to pay down principal on my car, personal debts, etc. This is not 100% strict because sometimes prices change - on gas, groceries, etc. I have built in a little flexibility to my budget to avoid any emergencies.
Getting down with nature - I'm not even going to pretend I'm good at gardening. My grandpa & dad have an amazing green thumb. I did NOT inherit this. But I take care of what I can. I have succulents, and I bought a wooden planter that I stained and planted seeds in. Maybe they'll never grow in. But the process of working with my hands and tending to them makes me happy. I also take walks with my dogs as often as I can, and I'm lucky enough to live near some decent green space where we can hang out on the grass/benches & relax.
Leaving work at work - I don't know about this business with people checking work emails on the weekend or in the evening. I do it maybe once a month as a special circumstance. But once I leave the building, I'm on my time. I check my email in the morning & tend to what I've missed. Sometimes I'll stay an extra 15-30 minutes at the end of the day to finish up, but I don't have to. Obviously this doesn't work for every job (retail, on call type jobs, rotating shifts, real estate, etc.). But it helps keep me sane & allows me to have hobbies and interests outside of work, and that's important to me.
Cooking - I make time to cook from scratch. It's cheaper, it's therapeutic, and it's better than what I can get at a restaurant. My husband and I like to learn how to cook new foods and be creative.
Waiting forever before making a purchase - I talk myself out of almost every big purchase (luggage, high quality leather purses (my biggest vice), SodaStream, professional clothes for work, etc.). Sometimes this tendency directly contradicts bulletpoint number three. I know lots of people here say to wait a day, a week, a month to see if you still want the item. I've been known to wait a year or more (depending on the item) to really consider how it fits into my lifestyle, what the cost/benefit ratio is, and how long I will get good use of it. I can't bear the thought of wasting money. That being said, when I do make a purchase, I try to buy something that is as BIFL (Buy it For Life) quality as I can afford.
Assigning everything in my house a "home" - This one may seem a littttle too far for some, and I accept that I am obsessive about my space. But I find that it's easier for me to control my clutter and keep my space neat and inviting when everything has a home assigned to it. The kitchen towels go here, the washcloths go over there. The ottoman should go here when not in use. Unopened mail goes here. Keys hang there everytime I walk in the house. That way when my house is a mess, it's easier for me to quickly put everything in it's place. This also helps me because I HATE losing things. I hate having to take time to find something when I know I have it, I just don't know where. It drives me up the wall. Anyway this concept probably sounds like a no-brainer but it's a constant struggle in my house because my husband isn't like this at all. He's so laid back, throws his wallet and keys wherever each day...I can't live like that! so I usually make up mental assignments for his stuff too, he just doesn't know it.
Turning off push notifications on my phone - I am so much more relaxed when I can check my apps at my OWN pace. I know some people get rid of their social media altogether...or don't use smartphones...but I find them incredibly valuable. I don't want email notifications & push messages popping up all the time, especially since so many of them are spam! This way I can check my email, Instagram, etc. when I have time and actually want to keep up on it.
Eating lunch at home with my SO - I live in an area where a lot of coworkers commute 30+ minutes from home to work, meaning they either eat at their desk or they go out to fast food or they bring a sad bagged lunch from home and eat in the kitchen area of the office. I, however, chose to move close to my office for a short 2.5 mile commute. It takes me about 7 minutes to get home each way, so for my hour lunch, that means I have 45 minutes to sit in my own home, cook something fast on my own stove, and watch a short TV show (22 mins), check the mail, make a phone call, bring in my trash can, take my dogs outside to stretch, etc. It does so much good for my soul to take a siesta (even though it's not as long as a traditional siesta, I WISH!) and be at home. I eat at home 85% of the time. Sometimes I use the time to pickup/drop off my husband at work. The one drawback of this is that a few of my coworkers have definitely bonded over eating lunch together, but I can live with this in my particular work environment. I realize this isn't doable for everyone but just the act of physically leaving work for a break helps keep my mind clear and relaxed, so when it is time to get back to work, I can really focus on my tasks ahead of me. (This kind of goes with the "leaving work at work" idea, but I thought it was important enough to separate out).


The Rules For Being Amazing by Robin Sharma
Risk more than is required. Learn more than is normal. Be strong. Show courage. Breathe. Excel. Love. Lead. Speak your truth. Live your values. Laugh. Cry. Innovate. Simplify. Adore mastery. Release mediocrity. Aim for genius. Stay humble. Be kinder than expected. Deliver more than is needed. Exude passion. Shatter your limits. Transcend your fears. Inspire others by your bigness. Dream big but start small. Act now. Don't stop. Change the world.

People aren't against you. They're for themselves.
The person that you will spend the most time with is yourself. So make yourself as interesting as possible.
If you accept your limitations, you go beyond them.
People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing. That's why we recommend it daily.
Everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something.
Comfort is the enemy of achievement.

Define your fashion uniform. Wear smart fabrics.
Visualize your end product. Start before you feel ready. When you read something helpful, write the author.
Take naps when energy is low.
Do easiest things first. Prioritize one item per day. Set a daily routine. Better done than perfect.
Routinize your diet. Eat healthy food. Get delivery to save time.
Focus on the important, ignore the urgent. Decide the outcome before starting. Idea Dump genius in notebook. Eliminate trivial decisions. Learn to ignore and not respond to everything. Treat time as your money.

Beginner bodyweight routine
50 jumping jacks
50 russian twists
25 leg raises
25 bench dips
25 body weight squats
25 v ups (lemon crunches)
1:00 plank
1:00 bridge

Awful Green Things random weapon quality function per monster species
Gamma Worlds random combined archetype character creation
Honestly, If the game would just fit a block of stats on a single playing card, and we just delt them out, that'd be awesome.

Throughout history, it has been recognized that the mumand mind is capable of two kinds of knowledge, or two modes of consciousness, which have been termed the rational and the intuitive, and have traditionally been associated with science and religion, respectively. In the West, the intuitive, religious type of knowledge is often devalued in favour of rational, scientific knowledge, whereas the traditional Eastern attitude is in general just the opposite. The following statements about knowledge by two great minds of the West and the East typify the two positions. Socrate in Greece made the famous statement 'I know that I know nothing', and Lao Tzu in China said, 'Not knowing that one knows is best.' - The Tao of Physics
Twilight Zone - Special Service
2006 to Early 2011 Model Year Rav4 Vehicles; Rear Lower Suspension Arms (No. 1); Safety Recall Notice; Revised Inspection and Remedy Procedure

"He had thought more than other men, and in matters of the intellect he had that calm objectivity, that certainty of thought and knowledge, such as only really intellectual men have, who have no axe to grind, who never wish to shine, or to talk others down, or to appear always in the right." - Steppenwolf, Herman Hesse

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